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Circus Act

Posted on Aug 18th, 2008 by Zink : Pathfinder Zink

Thoughtfood for Monday, August 18, 2008


Circus Act


I realized I had been living outside myself for so long I'd almost become a walking vacancy. I was still running a kind of circus which had numerous, highly believable posters plastered all over its outside -- See the Spectacular Non-Drinking Person! Watch How Movingly He Can Recite the Twelve Steps! -- but which had nothing going on inside the tent. . . . Perhaps the scariest part of turning recovery into just another celebrity act is that, it tends to glamorize drunkenness almost as an ad does and make it seem that being a poor sot is somehow an especially interesting and possibly even superior condition. I can't speak for anyone else, but I can state without reservation that as far as this particular drunk is concerned, that foolish notion got me into a whole lot of trouble.  Over and over.
© 1998 The AA Grapevine, Inc., The Best Of The Grapevine [Vol. 3] p. 238


From the Big Book:

"So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making.  They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of

self-will run riot, though he usually doesn't think so.  Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness.  We must, or it kills us!  God makes that possible."

c. 1939, Alcoholics Anonymous, How It Works, p.62.


Prayer for the day:

"I pray that I may think and say and do the things that bring God closer to me.  I pray that I may find Him in a sincere prayer, a kind work, or an unselfish deed."

c. 1975, Hazelden Foundation, Twenty-Four Hours A Day, Aug. 18.


Quote for the day:

"If you don't remember history accurately, how can you learn?"

__Maya Lin


My share:

Our quote for today strikes my memory chord lightly.  I wonder sometimes how accurate my recollections are of those times when I was inebriated.  I know I have difficulty recalling the names of those involved in any of the many incidents of confrontation and/or distress.  But I do remember vividly the scenes of explosive overreaction to loved ones when they accused me of drinking too much or suggested that I seek help for the problem.   Be Good To You, Dave.

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